That ache in your heart

Feelings run wild at this time of year. One minute you're all happy and excited about life the next you're emotional and seeking for your partner. I always blame it on the weather when feelings errupt or are moved.
Now about that ache in your heart, I hate it. It crawls, pinches and naggs until it annoys you like hell and drives you completely insane. Whatever you're aching for always seems to be in your head. Some people ache for their ex-boy/girl friend, some ache for a country they used to live in while others ache for chocolate. I once heard a friend of mine say I wish I could eliminate certain people from my memory. Well I told her you can medically do that but you can't eliminate them from your heart. Boy did I think that was only in theory. I used to always believe that whatever goes into your heart never comes out. In other words you can never hate the person you love but you can love the person you hate. Until I had a weird experience last year that made me think otherwise. An experience that taught me alot. I learned new things about myself. I learned how much I can care and share with others. I learned I can trust and understand without a single utter of a word. But what I wasn't ready for was that ache in my heart that was left after that experience was over. Funny. I always thought that letting go of something is as easy as writing on a note and dropping it in a bottle then throwing it in the sea. It turned out that that ache doesn't go away. That aching experience sticks to you like glue and by time it haunts you like a ghost in your dreams, between your friends and even during your working hours.
But don't worry you can switch that weird feeling around and trust me Wow the change you will feel. I still can't believe this experience or 'experiment' is over because I really loved me when I was there. And I love the me now even more. I saw myself in a new way and it really helped me mature. Trust me strong experiences can really prove you can kick a** even though it's one of the toughest times you've ever been through in your life.